My best friend Jen writes a fantastic blog at jenhaught.blogspot.com and she is currently doing an "Unmotivated Series" and I was her first subject! She asked me a series of questions and then put it out there for all to see (even pictures--yikes!).
I have already had just the best responses from people that I love! My friend Jess sent me a text as soon as the blog posted telling me I "inspired her". My sister Melanie sent me the sweetest text and said she is there for me for anything I need. My sister in law Lowe sent me a wonderful message with kind words and lots of support. I tell you they all know how to make a girl teary eyed!
I am not going to lie, even with posting my blogs here I was nervous about doing Jen's. She has a HUGE following and my struggles were going to get a lot farther then my 3 followers. The full length pic was probably the hardest part. I had my husband take it and just having him see it was embarrassing for me (even though he loves me no matter what size I am and reminds me all the time how sexy he thinks I am). Then seeing it for myself all I could do was focus on my stomach and the way my shirt stuck to it. After having 2 babies my body is not the same as it once was and the adjustment has been difficult for me.
Speaking of having two littles ones...
I know a lot of mother's can relate, but one of things standing in my way to exercising and taking time to myself is "mommy guilt". It can be overwhelming for me sometimes. My sister in law reminded me that I need to take care of myself. It is good for me and it is good for my girls. I know she is right, and I am going to do my best to get past it. I have mentioned in my earlier blogs that the most important thing for me is to be a good role model for my girls, and I think taking care of myself is a big part of that. I want them to grow up knowing that it is ok for them to do things for themselves. I want them to grow up seeing a mom who is comfortable in her own skin so hopefully they will be comfortable in their own as they grow up.
I have a lot of work to do, but I know I can do it! One day at time, or hell, even one hour at I time is what I need to do. I am going to work hard on getting past the "mommy guilt" and not putting too much pressure on myself to be perfect with my diet and exercise (as I always tell my daughter "try YOUR best, that is all I can ask for"). Seems reasonable :)
Showing posts with label diet. Show all posts
Showing posts with label diet. Show all posts
Monday, February 29, 2016
Sunday, April 5, 2015
Anxiety Level--HIGH!
I am sitting here watching TV with my husband and I am not able to concentrate on anything but the cupcakes and ice cream in the kitchen. Yesterday was my baby girl's 1st Birthday and I made 48 cupcakes for a party with maybe 15 people! Even after giving away what I could we have about 10 left. I ate 2 yesterday and I am struggling big time not eating one today. It is killing me. My anxiety level is off the charts.
Why the hell does food have this power over me? Will it ever get easier?
Sadly I don't think it will. I will always struggle with food and my weight. It is just the way it is. I have come to terms with that for the most part, but some days are certainly more difficult than others. Today is definitely a difficult one. I want to be able to eat what I want, but that is just not in the cards for me.
I have been doing pretty well with my diet even with the struggles. I am down 25 pounds which is exciting! I am a starting to plateau a bit so exercise is going to have to start to play a bigger role. I am going to have to find time (and energy) somehow to get it done. After having kids I have a whole new set of trouble areas to work on. I am going to start with yoga and walking/running. It is all about routine. If I push myself to do it for a couple of weeks it will become easier--just have to get to that point!
Why the hell does food have this power over me? Will it ever get easier?
Sadly I don't think it will. I will always struggle with food and my weight. It is just the way it is. I have come to terms with that for the most part, but some days are certainly more difficult than others. Today is definitely a difficult one. I want to be able to eat what I want, but that is just not in the cards for me.
I have been doing pretty well with my diet even with the struggles. I am down 25 pounds which is exciting! I am a starting to plateau a bit so exercise is going to have to start to play a bigger role. I am going to have to find time (and energy) somehow to get it done. After having kids I have a whole new set of trouble areas to work on. I am going to start with yoga and walking/running. It is all about routine. If I push myself to do it for a couple of weeks it will become easier--just have to get to that point!
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Dieting and Doing OK!
I have been on the sugar free, starch free diet for over a month now and I have almost hit my first goal! I have not seen the number that is on the scale in a VERY long time and it feels fantastic! I really feel like I have a handle on this way of eating and it has not been as difficult as I thought it would be. I may actually be making a lifestyle change! That is something new and different for me!
I have not started an exercise program yet which is a little disappointing, but I am trying to stay active with my kids through the entire day I am with them and when I am at work I have been getting up from desk and walking around as much as I can. It isn't much, but like changing my eating I need to do this in baby steps. I am trying so hard to not put too much pressure on myself. I really think that has been my big mistake in the past.
The recipe I want to share this week is a SUPER simple one, but it is so freakin' delicious! In fact, I have made it 3 times in the past 2 weeks. The name is Cheesy Buffalo Chicken. The recipe can be found at:
http://www.peanutbutterandpeppers.com/2014/03/18/grilled-cheesy-buffalo-chicken/
The recipe recommends grilling it, but I made mine in the oven. I served it with a side salad and mixing it all together was so good! My husband is a big fan of this dinner too, which is always a big plus!
I have not started an exercise program yet which is a little disappointing, but I am trying to stay active with my kids through the entire day I am with them and when I am at work I have been getting up from desk and walking around as much as I can. It isn't much, but like changing my eating I need to do this in baby steps. I am trying so hard to not put too much pressure on myself. I really think that has been my big mistake in the past.
The recipe I want to share this week is a SUPER simple one, but it is so freakin' delicious! In fact, I have made it 3 times in the past 2 weeks. The name is Cheesy Buffalo Chicken. The recipe can be found at:
http://www.peanutbutterandpeppers.com/2014/03/18/grilled-cheesy-buffalo-chicken/
The recipe recommends grilling it, but I made mine in the oven. I served it with a side salad and mixing it all together was so good! My husband is a big fan of this dinner too, which is always a big plus!
On a separate note--I can't believe my baby girl is going to be 1 in just a couple weeks! Where did the time go! I can't remember what life was like before her (not that I would want to!), but I still can't believe it has been a year since Izzy entered our lives! It has not been easy having 2 little ones only 16 months apart, but everyday I am more and more glad it happened the way it did. I am sure I will be eating my words when they hit the teenage years, but for right now seeing them grow and learn from each other is pretty fantastic! Can you tell today was a good day? If my kids were cranky today this would be a completely different paragraph :)
Sunday, March 8, 2015
Delicious Dinner
So 2 blogs in one day will probably not happen often, but I could not figure out how to segue cleaning my bedroom and not watching TV to the dinner I made a couple nights ago. I should have probably posted this the night I actually made it, but going to bed at 8:00 seemed like a better idea :)
I am currently trying to eat healthier. I am working to remove sugar and starch from my diet. With this has come eating a lot more meat, cheese, peanut butter, fruits, and veggies. My big splurge everyday is my morning cup of coffee with agave nectar. It has actually been easier than I thought it would be. I was pretty much eating sugar and starch all day long so it seemed like this would be a terrible idea, but I wanted to give it a shot. Not just to lose weight, but to hopefully feel better from the inside out.
I will be honest, I feel pretty good! I don't necessarily think it has been the answer to everything I was hoping it would be, but I definitely feel better than I did when I was bingeing on cookies, candy, ice cream, etc. One thing I am doing differently this time is keeping the idea in the back of my head that if I really want something I can have it. I had cake at my husband's birthday and tonight I really wanted to sit on the back porch and drink a beer so I did. I think a big part of always failing when I diet is that I go balls to the wall being super strict. I do it all or nothing. I am not going to that this time. I am not going to designate a day or meal as a cheat--I am just going to ask myself "Is it worth it and how bad to I want it". If I can't trust myself to moderate what I eat who can I trust. I need to learn.
I think the best part of this new diet (and what has kept me interested) is trying new recipes. I never really thought of myself as a cook, but I have really started to enjoy it! Pinterest has been my best friend. I try 3-4 new recipes a week. Some work and some don't. I thought I would share the ones that work on this blog along with pictures. Basically I am trying to stop myself from posting my food porn on Facebook and Instagram!
The other night I made Baked Parmesan Garlic Chicken Wings with roasted squash and zucchini and it was the BEST meal. An added bonus is that it was super easy to make. My husband could not get enough of them! The recipe can be found at: http://steamykitchen.com/7055-baked-parmesan-garlic-chicken-wings.html. As for the squash and zucchini, I just cut them into chunks and tossed them in olive oil, salt, and pepper. I cooked them in the oven with the wings for the same amount of time at the same temperature and they came out perfect.
I am currently trying to eat healthier. I am working to remove sugar and starch from my diet. With this has come eating a lot more meat, cheese, peanut butter, fruits, and veggies. My big splurge everyday is my morning cup of coffee with agave nectar. It has actually been easier than I thought it would be. I was pretty much eating sugar and starch all day long so it seemed like this would be a terrible idea, but I wanted to give it a shot. Not just to lose weight, but to hopefully feel better from the inside out.
I will be honest, I feel pretty good! I don't necessarily think it has been the answer to everything I was hoping it would be, but I definitely feel better than I did when I was bingeing on cookies, candy, ice cream, etc. One thing I am doing differently this time is keeping the idea in the back of my head that if I really want something I can have it. I had cake at my husband's birthday and tonight I really wanted to sit on the back porch and drink a beer so I did. I think a big part of always failing when I diet is that I go balls to the wall being super strict. I do it all or nothing. I am not going to that this time. I am not going to designate a day or meal as a cheat--I am just going to ask myself "Is it worth it and how bad to I want it". If I can't trust myself to moderate what I eat who can I trust. I need to learn.
I think the best part of this new diet (and what has kept me interested) is trying new recipes. I never really thought of myself as a cook, but I have really started to enjoy it! Pinterest has been my best friend. I try 3-4 new recipes a week. Some work and some don't. I thought I would share the ones that work on this blog along with pictures. Basically I am trying to stop myself from posting my food porn on Facebook and Instagram!
The other night I made Baked Parmesan Garlic Chicken Wings with roasted squash and zucchini and it was the BEST meal. An added bonus is that it was super easy to make. My husband could not get enough of them! The recipe can be found at: http://steamykitchen.com/7055-baked-parmesan-garlic-chicken-wings.html. As for the squash and zucchini, I just cut them into chunks and tossed them in olive oil, salt, and pepper. I cooked them in the oven with the wings for the same amount of time at the same temperature and they came out perfect.
Thursday, March 5, 2015
I wonder...
I wonder if other women feel the way that I do.
Does every woman feel pulled in a million directions at once? Does every woman feel like they are juggling a million things and if they look away for a second things will fall?
How do women do it? How do they work, and be a mother, and a wife, and a friend, and exercise, and eat healthy? I am trying so hard to figure all this shit out! I try everyday to do the best I can in all those areas and it is exhausting. I am I pretty sure I am not even doing that well most days with any of them! Somedays my kids watch too much TV, somedays I forget to ask my husband how his day was, somedays I feel like a selfish ass with my friends, somedays I spend all day shopping online while at work, somedays I eat every single meal at a fast food restaurant, and most days I don't get off my fat ass to exercise.
I want to better myself. I need to better myself. How will I do it you ask?
#1: Lighten up--this is both literally and figuratively. I need to lose weight, that is a given. I also need to put less pressure on myself. I can only do what I can do, no more, no less.
#2: Stop complaining--for Pete's sake I have it pretty freakin' good! I need to start appreciating all the things I have and shut the hell up about everything else. I can't really promise that I won't EVER complain again, but I can certainly do it less and I can definitely be more positive.
#3: Eat healthy most of the time--I know I am not going to be perfect with this, but I think I can commit to at least 80%. I am not going to life the rest of my live without sugar and starch. Most days I can handle it, but let's be honest when it is my kid's 1st birthday I am going to be shoving cake in my face as fast as she will be shoving it in to hers. I don't have to be perfect (see #1), but I will do what I can whenever I can.
#4: Stop with the laziness--I have a tendency to be a bit lazy. If I can put something off until later (or never) I will. Honestly, I think I would sleep my life away if I could. These are not things I am proud of, but I have to deal with them nonetheless. I need to stop making excuses not to work out. I need to stop making excuses to run the errands I need to run. I need to stop making excuses not to clean or do laundry. There are about a million other things I could list here...
This is all I got for now. Let's see how it goes!
Does every woman feel pulled in a million directions at once? Does every woman feel like they are juggling a million things and if they look away for a second things will fall?
How do women do it? How do they work, and be a mother, and a wife, and a friend, and exercise, and eat healthy? I am trying so hard to figure all this shit out! I try everyday to do the best I can in all those areas and it is exhausting. I am I pretty sure I am not even doing that well most days with any of them! Somedays my kids watch too much TV, somedays I forget to ask my husband how his day was, somedays I feel like a selfish ass with my friends, somedays I spend all day shopping online while at work, somedays I eat every single meal at a fast food restaurant, and most days I don't get off my fat ass to exercise.
I want to better myself. I need to better myself. How will I do it you ask?
#1: Lighten up--this is both literally and figuratively. I need to lose weight, that is a given. I also need to put less pressure on myself. I can only do what I can do, no more, no less.
#2: Stop complaining--for Pete's sake I have it pretty freakin' good! I need to start appreciating all the things I have and shut the hell up about everything else. I can't really promise that I won't EVER complain again, but I can certainly do it less and I can definitely be more positive.
#3: Eat healthy most of the time--I know I am not going to be perfect with this, but I think I can commit to at least 80%. I am not going to life the rest of my live without sugar and starch. Most days I can handle it, but let's be honest when it is my kid's 1st birthday I am going to be shoving cake in my face as fast as she will be shoving it in to hers. I don't have to be perfect (see #1), but I will do what I can whenever I can.
#4: Stop with the laziness--I have a tendency to be a bit lazy. If I can put something off until later (or never) I will. Honestly, I think I would sleep my life away if I could. These are not things I am proud of, but I have to deal with them nonetheless. I need to stop making excuses not to work out. I need to stop making excuses to run the errands I need to run. I need to stop making excuses not to clean or do laundry. There are about a million other things I could list here...
This is all I got for now. Let's see how it goes!
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